6 days to Sundown

I am supposed to be loading up.

I have to admit my appetite still hasnt been particularly ravenous and I am still pretty stick like. I dont know what happened to my arms. They're like skeleton, with minimal muscle definition. I'm pretty sure I looked healthier before, or at least look like I cannot be bullied. I feel somewhat weaker. because I kept hitting low energy days and struggled to keep up with the thursday runs. today I found myself unable to go beyond 6km. well I could have, but tiredness just swept me over.

I guess I'm quite tired of all that running. I mean I dont hate it, but when its all about logging mileages, the fun wears out because it starts to become a little stressful when you keep failing to meet the target. Right now I really wish for a time when I can just train for a better time at 10 km. And yes I am too tired to eat most times. When I get home I just want to crawl into bed, thinking I'd make up for it at breakfast. Do I take breakfast? No.

I decided the answer is really in my own cooking. when I hit 40-50 km a week, there was just no energy for my pasta dishes and I was eating hawker rubbish, or rather not eating them because I'd be pecking at the food. With just a week to figure out what I can do right, I decided I should go back to my carb rich pasta diet. Post workout is a plate of pasta, just before bed a glass of milk with a 10% yoghurt and a dash of tumeric. it was a frequent ritual when I still had arms. it cant be wrong. and of course I have the energy to do that now. I should, because I'm not doing more than 5km each time.

My songlist is done; has been for some weeks, though I should pepper it more with Pinks "'Cuz I can". I like. B***ch but inspirational. I bought a new running belt for a small water bottle, money and to clip my ipod. This way I can run with my hot pants instead of my tennis shorts with the pockets. I dont do running shorts FBT style. They flap like anything, and somehow I tend to look like a bell waist down. Espeically now because my thighs' concave is more obvious. Those that dont flap come in pink or yellow, I mean come on, I'm seriously into this.

For some reason when a minah wears hot pants for running she looks like a dangdut queen, I suppose so, judging from the whistles I get along the satay stalls. I mean I dont even have much meat, satay man.

The small water bottle that comes with the belt, is handy because after certain mileages, 2 km feels like 5. The hydration helps make the journey less painful.

So whats the plan, I dont really have one except to try to hit 1hr for the first 10 km. The rest depends on my energy levels, sort of, I mean based on my last 21 km time I thought I can manage. But once I sat down and did the sums, 5 hours seems overly ambitious. That and the fact that the good runners in my training group did more than 5 hours the last time they ran. But they claim they werent "prepared" or it was their first try.

I dont have butterflies yet. I think the week will pass and I'll be at the start before I know it.